Archive for October, 2017

posted by Amy on Oct 9

In an online support group a member posted about “I Am Dying.” a National Geographic special about Renee Heidtman, a 32-year old woman who died of breast cancer.

If I remember right, after she died Renee’s friends and family took solace in the thought that she “did it her way.” What she did was refuse treatment for early-stage breast cancer. She had a binder full of “research.” She decided to do “Gerson Therapy.” The cancer metastasized to her liver, lymph nodes and brain. She agreed to try chemo and radiation then. She died soon after.

The reason she opted for juicing and coffee enemas was she was worried her future fertility might be jeopardized by “toxic” conventional cancer treatment. And it might have been.

On the other hand, Gerson can kill you. It can cause lethal electrolyte imbalances.

With anything, whether or not it’s harmful depends on the dose. You can even overdose on water.

Cancer is “natural,” right? I don’t understand being more afraid of chemo than of cancer.

Cancer is not caused by “toxins” or cured by flushing out “toxins.” It’s caused by mutations.

What did she have in her research binder? Remember, the plural of anecdote is not “evidence.”

There’s no such thing as “alternative medicine.” If something is effective, it’s medicine. If not, it isn’t. Full stop.

Some people who are diagnosed and treated for early stage breast cancer later progress to Stage IV, which is incurable. (I was Stage IV “de novo,” or from the first.) Renee’s cancer might have metastasized anyway, even with treatment. But we’ll never know.

posted by Amy on Oct 4

In mid-July I learned the cancer had spread to my brain, Symptoms included double vision and balance/gait problems.  I had 5 radiation treatments, ending in early August. I  am quite disabled now—housebound and wheelchair bound. I am very fatigued. I have not slept this much since infancy.

This might be the beginning of the end. I hope not. I might have some good quality time left. But I think “hope for the best; expect the worst” is a good approach here.

I am naturally upbeat and optimistic, and I’m good at compartmentalizing my worries, I have never forgotten I’m living with a terminal, incurable illness. Just because I’ve beaten the odds so far does not tell me how much more time I have. Cancer can turn on a dime.

Be good to one another. Take nothing for granted, Be grateful, And stay in the light.

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